thank u......... i hope in this 1 month i will more strong and enough on rest..... yesterday, i didnt sleep,until what time i also dont know.... i just know i crying until cannt speaking...... many friend and anunty ask me what the going on..... i dont know how to aswer it,bcoz i know all is my problem. and midnight i sms and call u,seem u didnt reply anymore. i think i know what i want do to on that time. but,morning u send a msg to me, ya....i very suprise....hope see u in kafu party there.
sometime not i dont want let u know when i sad or have happen on myself...everytime when i seem u have many problem want to handle,and now u start ur study,i dont wan influence u... ya,u will say we r couple...but i dont want increase ur pressure.Do you know that? and not just me didnt share my feeling out,u also same.i know u dont think so,i hope can sharing ur pressure v me.
this few day,i really down almost want die,i know i very selfish didnt gv u any chance to explaine and choose.i just ask myself what can i do???i know u hate me y i didnt care about ur feeling.. becoz i dont wan c u stand between ur family and me..
sunday,why i dun wan ask u anymore? coz i always believe myself,tell myself,i can,i can,dont ask anything.i dont wan argue v u on that time....but when i reach home open pc ,i cry ,heart pain change the relationship to single...actually start from that moment i tell myself dont wan msg u again,let all of this pass....
monday,i regret all of this,i dont know y i do a stupid thing... i didnt bring phone cannt see ur msg,open pc but u didnt open ur chat list...i really down and down...bad and bad mood....
anywhere,1 month will fast pass...if you have ur plan just do it.
